I have been reflecting the past couple of days on where I was a year ago. I had just moved back home and all I know was that I was supposed to go back to school. I didn't know what I was going to be doing this fall semester or this slightest idea if I was going to continue on in school this fall. I remember sitting in my car right next to the Rexburg Temple one night and saying a prayer. As I was saying it I was crying. I didn't have the slightest idea of what I was to do. I just wanted some guidance as to what would with my year. When I closed the prayer, I still had no clue. I was one to have my head higher, but at the same time lower also. All I wanted was to feel at least SOMETHING of what was going to happen, but I didn't feel anything. All I felt was God's love for me and that he had this year in mind. I am glad now that he didn't tell me. He didn't tell me that I was going to start off the year being so hurt so quick. He didn't tell me that I was going to come better friends with Dawn and Tyson, and that I in turn would help them with their journey in life and for them to become stronger by letting them help me become stronger. Tyson is now on a mission in Jackson, Mississippi and I really should do better at writing him. His words of encouragement helped me realize the purpose of events happening. Dawn was able to come closer with her roommates and others in her ward. She received the calling of Relief Society President this past Fall semester and by what I saw, it helped her grow into such a greater woman than she already was.
I was writing in my journal this morning and thinking about my testimony. Albert has told me over and over how strong my testimony is to him. That is something that he finds attractive about me is my testimony. I was thinking about it and I think personally that it is currently pretty weak. I really hope that one day my testimony can become stronger and grow further out like the branches in the pictures above. Something that I kinda got annoyed at, at first was how forceful Albert seemed to be when asking me to do this, but now he asks me if I did, and I LOVE smiling when telling him yes because then I got to hear him smile! :) He wanted me to start reading the scriptures everyday whether it be just a few verses or a chapter or two. Like I said, at first I was reluctant but then I asked God to help me do this. So far for the past 10 days.....I have been able to read........ALL 10 DAYS!! :D I can start to feel the difference that has been in me since I started doing this. I would like to thank for encouraging me to do the things that I should be doing, and I am going to do better at it...I promise! I feel with me continuing to read the scriptures and making my prayers more sincere, my testimony will become even stronger than what it is.
I know that our Heavenly Father loves us, and when we can't feel it he will manifest it through someone we know. I know this because this past week he has been showing his love for me through Albert. He has shown me that no matter what may come He is always going to be there and though it may have been hard with my family this year during the Holiday season, he has shown me that everything is going to be ok....better than ok actually!!! New adventures are in store for me and I am excited to see them!
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