Joy

If someone would have came up to me at the beginning of the year that I would be so happy by the end of the year, I would have laughed and said, "No way would that be possible!" Looking back on this past year has been a huge turning point for me. This year started out hard. Things happened that changed me in more than one way. I was definitely not ready to trust anyone again anytime soon. All through Sept. and Oct. I had many, many flashbacks of the accident that took my grandmother, my family away from me eleven years ago. The week leading up to my grandmother's birthday I thought I was going to be having nightmares. I thought I would be super depressed and just one to not be around.

On Friday I went to go hang out with my oldest Sister. I was telling her that the Lord surely does hear us. I told her on how within the past few months, when I have been attending the temple, I have been praying that I would be blessed with happiness. That this fear would leave me, and joy would overcome me. My bishop also suggested that when I go, to pray about the future Mr. Spaulding in my life! lol. He has strongly suggested that I start praying sincerely about what I should do with things going on in my life. My bishop strongly cares for me, and loves me. He kept saying that I needed to pray asking for happiness, and for the lease of this fear that I have been holding onto for a while. One step at a time, and I have been able to achieve this goal that I have been working on.

I would just like to quickly bear my testimony that I know the Lord surely does bless us. If you ever may think that the Lord doesn't hear us, think again. He does. He listens to our thoughts and our actions. He has a plan for us, and he surely does want the best for us. We are each one of his children that he wants us to come back to him, to our Father. I honestly don't know where I would be if I didn't have this wonderful, truthful gospel in my life. It has taught me how to become so much stronger, and lets me know that even if in my deepest hour...I know I am loved by him and many others! I love you all!

Happiness

So I hardly ever get on here. I hope I do get on here more and more because I used to love writing on here! Well, last Sunday was stake conference for our Stake. I went with my neighbor family and sat with them. Some of the talks were about marriage and finding someone to love. I leaned over occasionally to talk with Mariah about my remarks, and how I was not going to ask any guys out on dates anymore. I was tired of just being the one to ask, and then not hearing from them again! So I was sure that I was not going to find anyone. The majority of the messages that were given was something that I needed to hear about not adding extra stress into your life, and to live life to the fullest. They also gave us a challenge to change something within our lives that would make us a stronger/better person. I had decided that I was going to work on being happier, smiling more, and overall trusting people in general. There is also a lot more to that than what I said.
Anyways, that night I started talking with a gentleman who noticed my comment about Stake Conference. He was wondering if we were in the same stake, but we weren't. Mine was in the morning, and his was in the afternoon. We started talking through messaging and then also through text later on. Friday evening we went over to his sister's apt. to hang out and have some fun there, and then we went on a walk later on. Saturday we had a double date at his place, and had dinner with a movie. We had talked so much that on Friday he asked me if I would like to be his girlfriend. Honestly, I haven't been so happy in my life! I haven't been able to stop smiling and knowing that this is what should be happening right now. I guess the Lord has let me know now that I have healed enough to trust myself with the chance of love.

Things are going great, and I am so happy that I can't believe this is happening! Happiness is of great joy!

Albert has been so great to me, and he is so amazing!!!