Rukus!

So this week has been all over the place! Started out really good. I was ready for the most part, but like way nervous for everything. Nervous for classes to be in full swing, nervous for me making new friendships (or at least trying to make new friendships!). JJ is one of my new friends. He contacted me right before he moved back to Rexburg to start up for school. I was kinda happy to know that I was going to have another friend other than Tawny who I already knew was going to be up here! Tawny is such a doll and I love her to death! We did a double date in December, and that was when we were discovered each others goofiness inside of each of us! Anyways, I was kinda excited to get to know some new people!
Monday night he invited me over to his place and we just talked and got to know each other. We also saw a movie Tuesday called R.E.D. Really different than what I expected but we both laughed through it! There were a lot of people there to see it!! Wednesday classes started, so I don't think we really saw each other, but we still talked through text. All during this time I dogsitted my brother's dogs at his house. Quite interesting, but way fun!
I am now a week and half into school, and I am already behind in my math class! Is that pathetic or what!?!?! There is so much homework required for this class that I just can't keep my concentration on it long enough to do the fact sheets, the function guides, labs, ect.!! The rest of my classes are going ok so far this semester. In my Anatomy and Physiology class, it is strongly emphasized that we study in study groups, so I am going to venture and try that works.
One thing that I tried to achieve was getting back onto the Lifeguard team at BYU-Idaho. I went to try-outs Thursday afternoon, and I just couldn't succeed. It took me two times to get down to the bottom of the pool to get the victim, and three times to get the spinal victim to roll over. I knew after the try-outs that I didn't do so well. When I got the e-mail Thursday evening, I read it and I just started bawling. I could not stop crying for the longest time! I called my dad, called my friend, called my supervisor, and also JJ. JJ suggested that I come over to receive a hug. Thinking that it would help, I went over. We sat and talked about everything except that, but I was held back so much. I really just bury my head in his shoulder and just cry. Cry out my fears, my disappointment. But, I didn't. I just sat there, not really looking at him. By the time I left, I had forgot about the try-outs because he started to act like he really liked me. I even got a little kiss before I left. I woke up Friday morning remembering the e-mail which got me down again. I sat in math class, on the verge of tears, just trying my hardest to not let this get to me. I don't know exactly why I was so distraught by it, but I was. JJ and my family have been great to help me forget about it.
I pray that I as I go through the rest of the month, that I will be able to be more clear on what the spirit is trying to tell me, and that I don't drive JJ and Tawny away. To be honest, I don't know what I would do if I were to loose those two as friends where my other friends were pushed away. I want to grow stronger with them, and be able to go to them when I need to. JJ and Tawny....THANKS!