What is life really about?

I haven't really updated this blog lately. How bad is that? Well things have changed in since my last post. With the condition that I have in my leg, it has been advised that I wait like a year or so until I know that I can handle walking on my leg before I serve a mission, which is fine by me. It just means that I have to wait now. So for the time being I am working almost full-time. So far there have been hardly any guys in the picture of my life. Zach and I are still friends and all, and we still think of what the future has in hold for the both of us. We both thought that we were going to get married to each other. Right now we don't really know what to do about our relationship. Personally I think it is best that we are friends. I don't need anyone steady in my life right now. I have been up and down since we broke up, and my parents are concerned on what I am doing. So would I if I found out that a child of mine is spending time by the river, quite a LOT! Right now, I have a little under a week left of waiting to go on my vacation! FINALLY! I am so excited for this. It will get me away from Rexburg so I can think clearly about what to do next in my life, I think. Right now I am thinking of just working for a straight year and then go back to school. They told me at admissions that if I do that, I will have to reapply for school, which seems fine to me I guess. I just feel comfortable with working for a year. I might do some online classes though through other colleges. With the way that this past school year has gone for me, I think I need to get my health in good condition before I try going to school and two jobs again! That I think is what made me really sick! So Kansas, here I come in a week. I get to see my two best friends, and also my oldest sister who I haven't seen in a year or more now that I think about it. Still trying to figure out what all we are going to do for about seven days, but I think we are just going to wing it the whole way! We do have some things planned for the time, but only like three or four days worth out of twelve. I have been teaching swim lessons this past week, and they just wear me out. I only have one week left!!!! The youngest class that I have, just is hard for me to do for some odd reason. I don't know if it is because of them not being so well disciplined, or if I am just not a good teacher. I literally cried today because of what has been going on with my classes. They just are so hard to teach. I give props to preschool teachers, and elementary school teachers. They have some major guts for being willing to work with these young kids. Well, I should head to bed now. I am tired and exhausted! Good Night to All, and to All a Good Night!