Hurt

I have a song by Johnny Cash titled "Hurt". I like it because it starts out mellow with only an acoustic guitar, then when the song is almost over with the drums come in and liven it up while he makes his voice louder. I guess we don't really realize that we all hurt within ourselves. We just tend to think that each of us have or own problems while everyone else goes on happily living their lives. I know that isn't true. My grandmother's students, friends, family, and coworkers were all hurt when she died eight years ago. Not only me, but all of them. All of them that came to the church house and overflowed the chapel and cultural hall on that Saturday. Lately I have been thinking that I am the only one hurting with issues that I have with my family and with my coworkers and my fiance's family, but that isn't true either. Zach likes to complain a whole lot and make it seem like he is stuck is this place that seems to be rotting to him, but I see it as the other way around right now. He has the option of going on a walk to the park or job searching, but the other people that are there during the day are trying their hardest to keep their heads above water more than he is. I just never heard someone cry to their significant other about their feelings like I did last night. Couples seem so happy when they are out in public, but is inside four walls that can change their relationship significantly. On TV shows we always see this happy couple and everything is going good, there are no problems, there are no outside problems from family, or entertainment. They just seem happy. I know that what the TV puts on the screen isn't true.
Last night Derek came bowling with Zach and I at Teton Lanes. We are in our second game and I walk behind Derek so when he pulls the ball back I can take it out of his hands. Well that was pretty funny because he didn't know what happened when his ball disappeared. Well my turn was after Dereks and so he takes my ball and bowls the first turn for me. I wasn't to happy about that. So the second turn they just leave me alone. Well after I pulled the ball back and it was moving forward while still in my hand, I trip on my shoelaces (because they are crazy long on those shoes) and fall flat on my face halfway onto the lane. Everyone was laughing. The next few frames I wasn't doing to good after that. I guess that shows me huh?