Crash

I have dreams where something bad happens to me, and I wake up crying. Well, today in reality I wish I could cry. I wish I could stop this void that I have in me. There is nothing that I want more than to be happy. Why am I not happy? I am practically having the time of my life. I guess I am not. I just wanted Zach to be happy tonight. Apparently that was too much to ask for because he was in a crappy mood which made me become into a crappy mood too. I also wanted to hang out with Catherine. I apparently ask to much. I am getting into a depressed mood again, so if I start posting up crap it is just that I have nothing else to put up.